“I’m On That New Diet Where You Eat Everything And Pray For A Miracle”

First things first… I have a weight update! I went to the nutritionist Friday and I was down 3.6 pounds from the last time I saw her 4 weeks ago. That’s 30 pounds lost since I started going to my nutritionist. Currently I’m at 326.4 pounds.

My eating this week was the usual. Breakfast was great. Snacks were great. Lunches were great. Dinner was crap.

My food schedule is so structured during the day. I have perfected doing the healthy eating all day until dinner. Breakfast is always something quick, like a microwaved Jimmy Dean omelet with toast and milk or bran flakes cereal with microwaved scrambled eggs.

   
   

I pack two snacks and a lunch to take with me to work, so those three meals are always portioned out and easy for me to control. Snacks are usually low sodium V8’s, peanut butter and crackers (with frozen cherries), almond thins and dip, bananas, or bread and cheese, this week being roasted garlic focaccia with brie cheese.

   
 

Lunches this past week have been leftover steak and Brussels sprouts with mashed potatoes, tuna sandwiches, and fat free refried black bean tostadas.

  
   

The steak was leftover from grilling out with my dad last weekend. He bought 2 filet mignon steaks because he thought they were small and that it wouldn’t be enough. For someone who’s trying to reduce their meat intake, it was the perfect size. So, I got leftovers!

The Brussels sprouts were leftover from Sunday cooking with the BFF. We decided to workout and cook a healthy dinner. We made roasted Brussels sprouts with a light garlic aoili, a “risotto” using a mix of couscous, quinoa, lentils, and garbanzo beans with chicken broth and Parmesan cheese, and we bought a rotisserie chicken for our protein. As for the workout part, we did 20 minutes of turbo fire. I would say it’s a mix between jazzercise and tiebo. It was fun and I definitely was sweating my butt off. I even took a picture because I had sweat dripping down my face.

  
The refried black bean tostadas I made this week were amazing! I bought a Mexican brand of the canned beans and just layered them onto oven baked corn tortillas with guacamole, shredded low fat cheese, and diced Roma tomatoes. Sooo good! I’ll be making these again for sure!

I forgot that one day at work they had free sandwiches, so of course I’m cheap, so I took advantage of the free lunch. I had two sandwich pieces, one was italian and the other a ham and swiss.

  
I also had a lemon poppyseed muffin (not pictured).

For dinner this week, I ate out twice, and cooked at home 3 times. At home, I had baked fish with mashed potatoes and green beans, frozen macaroni and cheese from Trader Joes, and a random assortment of things in my freezer one night which included a scallion pancake, a chicken tender and the small pieces left at the bottom of the bag, crispy curry potstickers, and some asparagus.

   
 

The nights I ate out, I had a lot of food at Taco Bueno (it was cinco de mayo and Mexican food was calling my name) and I had Raising Canes chicken and fries. And I had Dr. Pepper with both meals. Speaking of Dr. Pepper….I love a good meme.

  

I wish Dr. Pepper wasn’t so similar to crack cocaine…

Anyways. I’m really going to work on my dinner choices this week. I bought EASY options for this week. Like, E.A.S.Y. Like, open up the bagged Caesar salad kit and open the dressing packet, easy. And open up the cooked grilled chicken strips and throw them on the salad, easy. Seriously, if I get lazy and eat out this week, then there’s seriously something wrong with me. I literally (I can’t say this word without giggling anymore. Thanks SNL!) could not be more prepared or set up for success this week.

Completely unrelated, but here’s a link to why I giggle at the word “literally” every time I say it. http://youtu.be/Ef_33wIEeds

I’m not a huge SNL fan, but I was cracking up during this skit. Ugh, love it!

There’s just one last thing I wanted to share with you guys.

As you know, I’ve been going to the gym with my friend Demi 2-3 times a week. Almost every time, we run/walk on the treadmill. Well, recently we’ve been adding in some running, before it was mostly walking. Anyways, I started at a 17 minute per mile pace, then brought that down to 15 and a half, and then today my pace was 14 minutes and a half for a mile. 14:36 to be exact.

It’s always exciting to keep shaving time off your pace, so I was excited about that!

Well, it’s late so I better get some sleep. It’s Mother’s Day tomorrow and I’m spending the day with my momma, yay! I think I’ll do a Mother’s Day post tomorrow, so be on the lookout for that tomorrow night some time.

Selfie (n.): a picture taken of a person by that person

So much to share!

It seems as though my blogging will be a weekly thing just because I only really have the time and energy to blog on the weekend. That makes for longer posts filled with everything from the week. I like having a theme, but it seems that my theme again this week is “a little bit of everything.” Boo. That’s boring. How about instead this weeks theme is “Selfies” because I have a lot of pictures to share and they’re mostly selfies.

So last week, I left off saying that I was about to go hike on Turkey mountain again with friends, which we did indeed go. We hiked for about 50 minutes and I think we went a couple miles. Of course, we took breaks along the way to drink some water and take pictures.

   
 

Again, I had such a great time hiking and even more fun hanging out with friends. After our hike, we went to Freebirds for delicious burritos for lunch.

I didn’t exercise again all week until Friday evening. My friend, Demi, has a gym membership to a gym where she can bring a buddy for free every time. Luckily, I’m her buddy and she takes me for free. This works perfectly for me because I’m cheap AND I need to save money for Mexico.

Demi is a great workout partner because we’re on the exact same level fitness wise. When we workout on the treadmills, we finish our miles at the exact same time. We do this partly because we’re motivating each other. I’ll start to run, and then she’ll run. Then she’ll start running and keep going, and then I’m motivated to run again. We’ve made it into a fun little game/competition and it really helps us go faster, harder, and longer.

Here we are on the treadmills.

   

After the walking/running on the treadmill, we usually do a lot of stretching. Then, we’ll use the weighted balls to do arm exercises. I really need to get rid of my “wings.” You know, the ones that show up when you lift your arms up and out to the side, yet don’t actually allow you to fly? Those wings.

Sometimes we’ll also ride the stationary bike or the elliptical as well. Most times, we’ve been staying over an hour at the gym. I’m really thankful I’m getting to go for free because when it starts getting really hot outside, I’m not going to want to be outside hiking and biking, so thank God for great friends with gym memberships!

More gym selfies!

   
   

That’s all of my exercise this week!

Let’s talk about the good stuff now. Food.

My eating was pretty terrible this week. I ordered pizza. Twice. One day, I even ate the entire pizza in 2 hours. This was me…

  
Literally.

Only mine was thin crust. That’s better though right? Right? Anyone…?

Eh, obviously not. But I’m glad to say I’m still at the same weight. Hopefully I’m back to being motivated.

I DID make lots of healthy choices this week too.

Breakfast was the same as last week, omelets with toast and milk OR bran cereal with scrambled eggs.

Lunch this week was tuna sandwiches with carrots or fat free refried beans tacos with lettuce, tomato, and cheese with carrots on the side.


I have discovered how easy, fast, and delicious tacos can be. You can put anything into a taco! And they’re literally the quickest vegetarian lunch ever. Throw any canned bean or refried bean in there and add your favorite toppings such as avocado, low fat cheese, tomato, onion, lettuce, salsa, etc. The possibilities are endless!

Oh, I also brought a frozen Trader Joes meal one day for lunch when I was being lazy and didn’t want to cook. And by cook, I mean pack my lunch with things that were already cooked.

 
Butter chicken with basmati rice. Definitely buying this again! It was spicy and very flavorful and only 385 calories. Yum!

Dinner was pizza (twice), chicken tenders with zucchini fries and carrots, huevos rancheros, or a sandwich bought from Walmart with Pringles. Like I said, my eating wasn’t great this week.

 

  

The huevos rancheros was pretty tasty. It was 3 corn tortillas topped with 2 over easy eggs topped with black beans, tomatillo salsa, shredded lettuce, and crumbled cotija cheese.

I’m really hoping to get my healthy eating back on track this week. I have my nutritionist appointment in a week and I’d like to be able to show progress since I last saw her, almost 4 weeks ago.

I probably shouldn’t tell my nutritionist about the food truck festival I went to today. I had so much food: jerk chicken tacos with black bean and corn salsa with chipotle mayo, chips and black bean dip, fried mini donuts topped with fruity pebbles, and a hotdog topped with bacon, cheese, cream cheese (because one cheese isn’t enough), and ranch. The festival was so much fun though and worth it, especially since I got to hang out with the bestie.

Here we are right when we got to the festival. We were waiting in a really long line for tacos. I was “sad” because it was hot and I was hungry.

 

Overall, I’d still say this week was a great week. I remember before when I was at my heaviest, I didn’t enjoy being out or going places. My life was staying in at home almost all the time, in the comfort of my air conditioned home. While I was technically alive, I wasn’t living. Now, even though I’m still extremely overweight, I feel like I’m living my life. I’m getting out, going places, seeing sights, and not living life in front of the tv. It’s refreshing.

Also (a side note) I’m taking pictures again! I NEVER took pictures before because I was fat and felt gross. Now, I’m still fat, but I’m ok with the pictures. I want to be able to look back on my life and have photos of the great memories and events from my life. (Even if the photos are taken at an angle and taken from up high to reduce my double chin and have an added filter….)
This post would not be complete without one more selfie. Or 2 more.  🙂

   
 

Mr. Grey Will See You Now

As promised, I’m back with another blog post mainly dedicated to talking about my nutritionist appointment. I really wanted to share sort of what I’ve learned, what we talk about, what we do in our sessions, etc. So, let’s get started!

I’ve been going to my nutritionist for about 4 months now. She’s my accountability person. I willingly tell her the truth about everything food related. She’s my safe place, someone who I know won’t judge me. If I ate 2 cheeseburgers from McDonald’s for a snack, I can tell her knowing that I won’t get a “dammmmnnnnnnn” look. You know, that look when you say something crazy and people look at you like “dammnnnnnn.” And I really did eat 2 cheeseburgers for a snack one day and I felt 100% ok with telling her. If im not honest with her, she’s going to know. She weighs me every session so might as well tell her EVERYTHING.

So like I said, she weighs me every time at the very beginning of our session. Then she uses this cool machine that measures my body fat % or something along those lines. Not too sure because those results aren’t something we look at, but she keeps track of that number so she can track my progress. As of Friday, I’ve lost just over 25 pounds since I started seeing my nutritionist.

Next thing we do is go over my food log. She’ll look at everything I’ve logged over the past 2-3 weeks since I saw her last. If something pops out to her, she’ll ask me about it. A couple months ago, she saw pizza and waffles for dinner on the same day and was like, “Are pizza and waffles together a thing now?” I just answered, “Nope.” And then we talked about why I made that choice, or did I eat the pizza, but was still hungry so went for a waffle, or how was I feeling when I went back for more food.

In this most recent session, I told her about the weekend where I ate my feelings because I was sad. She asks about how I was feeling and what coping mechanisms did I use to feel better. We went over coping skills that are helpful, such as reaching out to a friend, doing something that’s a distraction, or writing in your journal. I did all of these things after my bad weekend of eating and I was self medicating and didn’t even realize it. I thought that was pretty cool! There have been times in the past where I’m not sure I would have been able to get myself out alone, but I did it this time (with the help of the BFF) and that was a great feeling.

Every session is something new. One week we talked about the different fats and which ones are good and bad. Another week we talked about the size of each meal and how to space out my calories. One thing we found out was that I was hungry in the evenings. So, she had me bulk up my breakfast so that I eat 500 calories for breakfast and it has helped so much! My nutritionist is great with finding out exactly what works for ME. Also, I can’t say enough how grateful I am for health insurance. My nutritionist appointments are covered 100% on my insurance, which makes me able to go see her.

More recently, we’ve started talking about exercise. She never pushed me to start. She never got mad at me if I didn’t exercise. But one day, I just started walking every now and then with my mom, which led to me exercising on my own. We set a goal for me to try to exercise 2-3 times a week for 30 minutes. Last week, from Sunday-Saturday, I exercised 4 times. Part of me is getting out there and walking because it makes me feel good to move my body and part of me is going because I have someone to hold me accountable and I want her to see me accomplish the goals we’ve set for myself.

Another great thing I’ve learned from my nutritionist is how I look at “cheat meals.” I no longer plan cheat meals. The reason being this….I got a pizza one Friday night or my cheat meal. So in my brain, I was going to eat 4 of the 8 slices. For the other 4 slices, I was going to eat 2 slices and a salad on Saturday and Sunday so that I still stayed within my calorie budget, which I did. What I found was so interesting is that I was just fine eating 2 slices and a salad for the days I hadn’t labeled as cheat meal days. So if I could have just eaten 2 slices on Friday, I wouldn’t have gone over my calorie goal.

Instead what my nutritionist told me is that she understands I’m not going to eat perfect 100% of the time. Really, I’m going to be eating great 80% of the time and 20% of the time will be meals like the pizza, where it’s not the best option. With this, I’ll still be in my calorie goal so there are technically no cheat meals. I just found this way of thinking really clicked, and although I’m still working on it, I’m no longer looking at meals as cheat meals. Obviously I’m not perfect, but I’m improving with this way of thinking, because this IS a lifestyle change and I want this weight loss to stick.

Last thing I talk about with my nutritionist is my hobbies. I recently discovered I really don’t have any, but that’s something I’m looking to change and I’m currently working on. I’ll talk deeper about this in another post once I see some changes in how I spend my free time.

I did recently decide to start reading again, which is something I’ve always loved. I’m one to jump on the bandwagon dead last. The Twilight series? I started reading it after the first movie came out to rent. I absolutely loved that series. So, I finally gave in and started reading 50 Shades of Grey. I LOVE it! It’s seriously so good! Which reminds me, I gotta go! I’m in the middle of a chapter and I need to see what happens next.

I’ll leave you with a few pictures of some meals and snacks I enjoyed last week.

   

Trader Joe’s chicken tenders, TJs zucchini fries, and canned carrots.

  

TJs Belgium waffles, TJs chicken sausage links, and lite syrup.

  

Pineapple…yum!

 

The most delicious Kind bar! I have a roasted jalapeño one I can’t wait to try this week!

Have a great week everybody!

It’s Been Too Long

I have lots to blog about but not enough time! Sorry for that! I do have a great recipe that I’d love to share with you, but I’ll have to post that tomorrow because I haven’t had time to write the actual post yet.

I do have some great news to share though!

I started this journey wearing a size 28/30 jean from Avenue. I had to go to Avenue because I was having trouble fitting into the size 28 jeans at Lane Bryant. This past weekend I went shopping for some new jeans because the size 26 jeans I had just weren’t staying up. I was constantly pulling up my pants from falling off of me. NOT a good problem to have.

I started off with a size 24. They fit but they were still a little big in the legs. I have smaller legs than my actual waist size. So, I tried a size 22…..and…..they fit!

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I also got a couple of new shirts in size 22/24 as well! VERY exciting as its been a while since I’ve seen this size fit.

I used to really love shopping back when I was younger (and smaller). Over time, I grew to hate it because stuff wouldn’t fit and if it did fit, I looked horrible in it. Slowly, I’m learning to love it again. This weekend trying on clothes was actually fun again. I even went into a store in the mall (The Gap) and tried on a pair of size 20 black pants. They fit in the legs and butt, but not in the waist. I was ok with that because I realized how close I was to being able to fit into clothes from a normal store again. Soooooo exciting!

While I was out shopping, I came across this Vera Bradley wallet I’ve been wanting to buy for quite some time. I decided today was a day to celebrate, so I bought myself the wallet.

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It’s exactly what I’ve been needing.

This weekend was a total success!

I’m more motivated than ever to keep up the great work so that I can go buy some size 20 pants in the near future.
🙂